Self Esteem

A New Name from God Will Free You of Shame!
By Dr. Bill Gaultiere
Clinical Psychologist & Spiritual Director, ChristianSoulCare.com

What do you say to yourself about yourself? Do you feel about yourself as our God of grace does? As a psychologist everyday I get inside the heads of people who are struggling. Here’s what I hear: I blew it. I’m a failure…. I’ve been abused. I’m a victim… I gave in again. I’m an addict…. I’m alone. I’m just a loner… I can’t lose weight. I’m unattractive.

You Need to be Freed from Shame
Shame is the most painful and destructive of all emotional states. To feel ashamed is to believe yourself to be bad and rejected for your badness. You think you are worthless and unlovable. You reject yourself and expect others, including God, to reject you. You look at what is wrong with you (or what seems wrong) and say, “That’s me and I’m bad!” In other words, when you’re ashamed you’re identifying yourself with a bad part of you or a bad thing that was done to you.

Of course, we all commit sin (by action, inaction, and attitude), and sin is offensive and causes God, others, and ourselves pain. Indeed, our sin is a terrible problem, but it is eradicated by God’s mercy and grace when we put our faith in Jesus Christ who sacrificed his pure life to pay the price for our sins and to reconcile us to God. (2 Corinthians 5:21) This means that those who trust in Jesus and receive their righteousness as God’s gift (rather than something they have to work for or measure up to) need never continue in a state of shame! (Ephesians 2:8-9)

So how should we feel when we sin? If God doesn’t want us living in shame even when we’ve sinned then what does he want us to feel? Momentary guilt. What the Bible calls “godly sorrow.” This is different than a depressing, dead-end guilt referred to in the Bible as “worldly sorrow.” (2 Corinthians 7:10) To feel godly sorrow or conviction about your sin is to feel sad that you’ve offended God or another person. The Holy Spirit pricks your conscience to show you that you’ve “missed the mark” of God’s good and holy purpose and brought on pain to yourself, others, and God. Then, trusting in God’s love, mercy, and grace you confess your sin and ask God for forgiveness.

The Believers Heart is Good!
If you’re a believer in Jesus Christ then the implications of what I’m saying are startling and glorious! Do you see it?

No matter what you’ve done, no matter what’s been done to you, “Your heart is not bad; it is good!” That’s the revolutionary change that God wants for you. Wait! Stop right there! You may be thinking. Doesn’t Jeremiah say that the heart is “deceitful and wicked”? (Jeremiah 17:9) Dr. Bill, how can you say the heart is good? Yes, since Adam and Eve’s sin the hearts of all people have been corrupted and are incapable of goodness apart from God. What I’m saying is that the heart that trusts in Jesus Christ and is being re-created and transformed by God is good. (2 Corinthians 3:18) Not all good, mind you, but good at the core. Yes, sin still lurks in all of our hearts and we must battle with God’s strength to “overcome evil with good” (Romans 12:21), but Christians are not to form their identity around their sins, nor the sins of others against them.

Unfortunately, people are not often taught this way of thinking at home or in church. But this is exactly Paul’s message in Romans 7. He describes his personal battle with sin saying, “What I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want do – this I keep on doing.” (Romans 7:19) This is the battle over his heart between God and Satan, angels and demons, and his Christ-redeemed-self and his “flesh.” The crucial thing to notice here is what Paul bases his self-identity on. By himself he admits he is a “wretched man.” (Romans 7:24) But this is not where he places his identity! Instead he thanks Jesus for rescuing him and he concludes that in his mind (his true self) he is committed to Jesus and will continue to battle his sinful nature. (Romans 7:24-25) It isn’t “I” who sin; it is “sin” living in me is Paul’s firm belief. (Romans 7:20)

Giving New Names is What God is All About!
So this is my question for you. What are you basing your identity on? Your pain? Your badness? Your goodness? No! No! No! You want to base your identity on God’s love, forgiveness, and grace to you by embracing the miracle that he can make you a “new creation” in Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:17)

So as a believer in Jesus Christ your identity is that of a “new self.” (Ephesians 4:24, Colossians 3:10) This transformation of God’s people fulfills Ezekiel’s beautiful prophecies from long ago that God will give his people a “new heart and a new spirit” (Ezekiel 11:19, 18:31, 36:26). Isaiah also prophesied about this. If you believe in Jesus and yet you’re struggling with feelings of shame then I encourage you to pray over these words from Isaiah 62:2-3:
You will be called by a new name that the mouth of the Lord will bestow. You will be a crown of splendor in the Lord’s hand.

When Jacob discovered that he wasn’t “The Cheater,” he was Israel, “The Overcomer” he lived with a new purpose and a new intimacy with God. He became the father of a nation and to this day, his descendants, the Jews, continue to live with Israel’s courage in the face of persecution and terrorism, knowing that they too are overcomers.

In fact, the Bible is full of stories like this. Abraham, Paul, and Peter were literally given new and beautiful names by God. Joseph, David, Rahab, Ruth, Jonah and so many others in the Bible tell the stories of real people learning from their failings and going through painful struggles as the forged a new, God-blessed identity and purpose.

How I Received my New Name
I am convinced that to discover the blessing of our new names we need to wrestle with God through difficulties as Jacob and the others did. We need to struggle through pain and disappointment and failure, continually crying out to God, “Who am I? What have you made me to be and to do?” until we get our answer.

I know I’ve wrestled with God over this. As a boy I learned from my mother that William means “Protector” and I thought that maybe my life was about standing up for her if my dad lost his temper at her or if she was disappointed about something, but this left me feeling smothered and depressed and so I withdrew. As a college student I thought I was to be a medical doctor and even though my family and friends were proud of me I was miserable and so I quit and became a “disappointment.” Even today, many years later, the roles I love the most like husband, father, psychologist, and teacher aren’t enough for me and at times have left me feeling bored or empty. I’ve learned that I can’t let any of these roles define me.

I had to hear my Good Shepherd call me by name and lead me (John 10:3). And so do you!

For me it happened as I was struggling with God over my sense of purpose and wanting to feel more passion in my life and I then I read a familiar passage in the Bible:

My heart resonated with this. Yes! I am the Lord’s Ambassador! I love caring for souls in Jesus’ name! God has gifted me to teach and to counsel and when I do this - whether in my counseling office, in a classroom, at the kitchen table, or over a cup of tea - I feel alive and I know that I’m making my contribution to the cause of Christ.

“It’s Hard to Believe that God Has a New Name for Me”
Maybe you think God doesn’t have a wonderful name for you? Don’t accept that idea! Instead, put yourself in the story from the musical Man of La Mancha? It’s an incredible, moving story. The Man of La Mancha is a knight who meets a prostitute named Aldonza, but instead of using her for sex, as so many before him have he calls out to her, “My lady! I give you a new name – Dulcinea.” And he sings about her, “To Dream the Impossible Dream.”

But Aldonza recoils and cries out, “Don’t call me a lady. I was born in a ditch by a mother who left me there, naked and cold and too hungry to cry. I never blamed her. I’m sure she left hoping that I’d have the good sense to die. Look at me. I’m no lady. I’m only a kitchen slut, reeking with sweat. A strumpet men use and forget. Don’t call me Dulcinea. I am only Aldonza and I am nothing at all!”

“But you are my lady, Dulcinea,” the knight calls out to her again as she runs away and hides in the darkness.

Aldonza is too ashamed and afraid to dare to believe that she could be the Man of La Mancha’s lady. I’m not beautiful, she thinks. He doesn’t really love me. I’ll never be anything but a wretch.

But still the knight sings of his love for her. Still he sees past her ragged appearance to a beauty inside. If only she would believe as he does! If only she could stop defining herself by the unjust wounds of abandonment and rape and repeated rejections. If only she could accept that her seductive appeals to weak men, her anger at the world, and her stubbornness toward the Man of La Mancha (God’s grace to her) could be forgiven. Her wounds could be soothed and her sins forgiven. She could have a fresh start, if only she’d accept her new name!

But we know how hard it is. You and I too have hidden from the love we need at times. Maybe you’re hiding now. Are you afraid to believe that God can make you a beautiful new creature? Have you let shame hold you back receiving deep in your soul God’s grace to you in Jesus Christ?

Then hold on for here comes the last act in the play. The knight is dying. His heart is broken because Aldonza refused his love; she didn’t accept her new name. He’s been condemned as a crazy person and an outcast. After all, who could believe such ridiculous things like Aldonza the town slut being a beautiful lady named Dulcinea?

Then to the knight’s dying bed comes a lady. She’s dressed in mantilla and lace. A smile adorns her glowing, angelic face. A heavenly choir is singing. Quietly she prays over the Man of La Mancha. He opens his eyes and asks, “Who are you?”

“My name? My name is Dulcinea!”

Ideas to Help You Discover Your New Name
To receive the blessing of a new name as Dulcinea did we need to hear God’s loving voice. Sometimes we hear it through listening prayer or through meditating on His Word as I did. But usually we hear it through grace-giving people in the Body of Christ. As with Dulcinea, we all need someone like the Man of La Mancha to love us in spite of our badness, to see what is beautiful in us in spite of what is ugly, and to persist in calling out to us. This helps us to trust in and internalize what we read God says about us in His Word.

Here are some additional, specific ideas to help you to receive the blessing of a new and beautiful name from the Lord.

William Gaultiere, Ph.D. offers “Christian Soul Care” as a Clinical Psychologist and Spiritual Director in Irvine, CA. He is also the Executive Director of the New Hope Crisis Counseling Center at the Crystal Cathedral where he’s trained over 1,000 people in Christian counseling skills. He offers free encouraging articles on Psychology, Family, and Christian Spirituality at his website, ChristianSoulCare.com.

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